Work with Compulsions as Energy Problems Not as Thinking Problems

I remember the first time I felt compelled to look and pay attention to something I did not want to and, after at least three years of concentrated daily work and putting up with the condition for over 20 years, I was right back at that initial point of compulsion.  Being forced to look and not wanting to.

I had removed 27 obsessions, 14 phobias and a number of other layered, intense secondary emotional responses, all of which had been triggered by the desire to fight the affects of this singular place in my mind.  They had done a good job of masking it from me – but now I was back facing the original, apparently unsolvable problem.  What I mentally paid attention to was not under my direct control.  Control of my attention mechanism had literally been taken off me.

The idea you cannot control what you pay attention to and that when it grabs your attention there is nothing, apart from temporary distraction, to relieve the pressure, is a very frightening experience.

The feeling for me came in the centre of my brain - some irresistible force grabbing the backs of my eyeballs and physically turning their attention to look at horrific imagery and my body felt ‘pushed’ towards taking action – but there was nothing to do.

I had received this experience after, would you believe, reading a newspaper article about someone being harmed and killed by a gang.  I had imagined the same thing happening to someone I personally cared about and the emotional responses were so strong it had conveyed a sense of reality to my Unconscious mind.  This was so effective my body was reacting as though the event were happening right now – but there was no event.

I felt stupid about the self-sabotaging problem I had created using just my own imagination but I had no idea how to undo the affects and there was no help I could see to explain the solution to me.  In fact any information I could get back then pretty much confirmed the condition was permanent and I was doomed.

I had read the triggering newspaper article when I was 21 and it had taken less than the a couple of days for the compulsive response to kick in and for me to establish the secondary emotional layers to begin fighting it.

The compulsive physical urge my compulsion produced was to get up and search the building I was in to find the person being hurt and physically stop the gang from hurting them.

So here I was, after over two decades of putting up with the emotional blocks and spending several years clearing them – right back at square one facing the compulsive urge and the feeling of its fierce grip in the middle of my brain turning my attention to look at things I did not wish to look at.

If you have read books on OCD or obsessions you may have read about how this is a ‘thinking’ problem.  So I am looking at my problem wondering what part of my thinking is turning my attention to look at the imagery over and over again and I notice there is no thinking I can immediately see.

I feel the pressure to look in the middle of my brain.  Thinking does not feel like anything and the thinking brain does not feel.  Feeling is an emotional problem.  Feeling is an energy problem.  The great news about an energy problem is if you remove the energy through feeling you remove the problem.

So I entered the feelings gripping the middle of my brain, forcing my attention to look, and over a couple of days this feeling started to reduce and the imagery in the background (in what I call the Reflection) behind this grabbing sensation started to come up, as did several other feelings.

I agreed to feel everything – and I agreed with the imagery and how I felt about that imagery but to do all this all I needed to do was find the feelings and go into them.

You know what?  Over several weeks I lost that compulsive urge to look.  I can still have those horrible thoughts and images – but I do not have the compulsive urge to keep looking at them.  No urge to look, no need to search buildings,  no gang to fight off, nobody being hurt.

If you have a compulsion you feel grips in the middle of your brain and it is a feeling you can go into I suggest you regard that is an energy problem and not a thinking problem.  Relieve the energy, relieve the problem.

Go in and you just could end up, to your surprise, coming out.

Regards - Carl

Drilling for Emotional Wellness: Removing Compulsions

What is a Compulsion?

A compulsion has two main components:

• an unpleasant triggering thought that repeatedly activates our unconscious attention mechanism accompanied by


• an emotional response generated within the body that makes us feel we need to do something.

A compulsion is the urge to do something preventative in regards to a potential threat.  This can be felt physically as a lifting sensation just below the chest area – it seems to come from the stomach.  It is very strong; very unwanted; and as a result of being unwanted is seen as unpleasant, painful and often interpreted as ‘abnormal’.

We can have compulsions in regards to very simple representations – simple images or words - behind which sit more complex reflections - scenarios in which we have strong imagery of things we value, or wish to protect, being harmed or destroyed.

Trouble is, because the scenario exists only in our minds, there is nothing we can do physically.  Unless, that is, you come to regard just feeling as something you do.

In a bid to calm the urge ‘to do’ for a while we may carry out physical ritualistic acts that reduce the tension - but the urge returns again and again because our Unconscious knows the main task still remains undone.  We have not completed the ‘doing cycle’ it requires us to do to the point our Unconscious can see the task as done and will then let the thoughts and feelings related to the feared threat go by just like our other thoughts do.

Compulsions can seemingly appear from nowhere but they may be supported by a foundation of prolonged anxiety or anger about the area of concern that has been there for some time.  The person becomes more and more sensitised to the issue in much the same way we do to a real-life external negative event that keeps recurring.

This repeated urge to do meets with a repeated ‘there is nothing to do!’ argument from our logical thinking mind (our left neo-cortex) which refuses the impulse to move towards the compelling imagery because the idea of physically doing when there is nothing to physically do looks completely illogical.

Is OCD related to Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)?

I believe it is.  Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is a condition in which a person has been through a real-life event and has produced such an intense, overwhelming emotional response they are unable to process the response at the time of the event.

The event may be a one-off thing or a long-term series of related incidents that challenges our understanding of life and who we are in relation to that life.  In PTSD the healing process involves the person re-entering their recurring memories of the real-life experience and re-negotiating their route through the experience; through their thoughts, feelings and interpretations; to a point they feel they can let  go of it.  Most of this work involves the imagination.

I would suggest the only difference between PTSD and obsessions/OCD is that one is initiated by real-life events whereas the other is based on mainly imagined events with a real-life anxiety creating background leading up to it.

Our Unconscious Does Not Know the Difference Between Real and Imagined Events

Because we logically know an imagined event is not real we tend to invalidate it – we say ‘it did not really happen and therefore the urge to go and undo the imagined event should not be acknowledged – it should not be there’.

This is what our logical mind says.  It is what the logical minds of some brain experts tell us.  However, we are not dealing with the logical mind – we are dealing with the workings of the Reptilian, Limbic and right neo-cortex pattern creating minds.  We are dealing with emotional energies trapped in the body.

What they want our logical minds to do is not the same thing as what our logical minds think we should do.

What Should We Do when there is Nothing Physically to be Done?

We need to do what our emotional minds need us to do – we need to go into the compulsion, find the Reflection behind it, and, ever so slowly, explore and come to understand what it is that drives it.

Behind the imagery connected to your compulsion; behind the Representation and within the Reflection; you will discover things you are really passionate about; what you care deeply about; what it is in life you want to hold onto.

You need to validate this overly intense experience – accept it – but at the same time feel and release the emotional energy attached to it with a view to removing the intensity.  It is the shocking intensity of it that grabs at your attention mechanism rather than the images themselves.

Releasing emotional energy in this way is ‘doing’.

At some point you will come out of the other side of the Reflection, having fully explored it, having discharged most of the emotional energy attached to it.

The compulsion becomes milder and milder in its attention grabbing affects until one day you see the whole thing as a neutrally charged memory and are able to let go of it.

Regards - Carl