You have set up a ‘drilling platform’ consisting of medical professionals, a counsellor and a private, distraction-free place where you feel safe enough to practice your ‘drilling for emotional wellness’ at regulated intervals.
Before you go in for the very first time there are some things you should keep in mind:
- obsessions are driven by trapped emotional energy – not by the repeating images or thoughts
- those repeating images and thoughts are the doorways through which the emotional energy driving your obsession hopes to escape.
Where to Place Your Pilot Hole Drill Bit
The drill bit we use when drilling for emotional wellness is our Conscious Point of Focus – what we deliberately pay attention to.
Obsessions are not driven by the imagery repeatedly appearing in the mind of the sufferer. They are driven by an emotional response trying to escape through the imagery. You eventually create the state known as ‘emotional acceptance’ by continually allowing the energy to discharge through the image.
You achieve emotional acceptance when you have fully discharged the emotional energy and the obsessive imagery stops appearing as a result. What you ‘accept’ is the nature of the energy release process – commonly known as feeling your feelings.
The imagery you currently see as a never-ending curse is actually the route to emotional freedom. The emotional energy you sense coming up through your body is telling you it wishes to escape through the route provided but you are currently stopping it from doing so.
So, when deciding where you should place your drill bit in order to start your first pilot hole the answer is straight through the imagery.
If even considering this an option fills you with dread this is because you have encountered your Secondary Belief Layer.
A Hard Outer Shell of Secondary Beliefs and Emotions
To stop the release process you have set up a series of belief systems, with their own supporting emotional responses, designed to hold the trapped emotional response powering your obsession in place. These additional belief systems combine to tell you one simple thing: if you allow yourself to feel the emotional response and listen to any information it contains it will kill you.
To allow the energy behind your obsession to gain escape you may first have to drill through this secondary layer repeatedly. This allows all the energy in your body to come up into conscious awareness and it begins releasing.
Originally set up to protect you from emotional pain this wall of false secondary beliefs now becomes your main immediate obstacle and it may take a long time to get through.
What Should You Expect as a Normal Part of this Early Pilot Hole Process?
Emotional gushing – feeling overwhelmed to the point you may need sometimes to lay down with emotional exhaustion.
Panic attacks; imagery of death through various causes; physical changes in such things as blood pressure; stomach acid; general anxiety and so on may be produced as a result of these beliefs. You can find yourself turning into a bit of a hypochondriac taking multiple trips to see your doctor and even midnight journeys to hospital when unexplained symptoms arise and you are not sure what they mean.
You should consider this a normal part of the emotional release process and do not enter into a phase of self-criticism over any of this behaviour; especially when others do so – self-criticism just delays healing.
Seeing this behaviour in yourself you may wonder if you should now turn back to your old approach of avoiding the inward direction (I found this impossible to do – it was a bit like tipping over the edge on a downward rollercoaster).
What Should You Focus On?
What you should start to focus on is difference. Things may be much worse – but they are different; they have not been different for a very long time, have they?
Continue to drill your way down wondering what different things there are still to be discovered.
My personal goal when I began my self-healing programme was to get rid of the entire thing within three months. Although that pilot plan did not work to schedule I made so much progress in those first three months I knew I had to continue due to the level of difference I could sense. I may have been in pain, but I felt empowered.
I did not like the journey, but finally there was a journey to be had and I was going to take it even if it might kill me.
You learn to focus on what you do, rather than how you feel, because doing is what makes the difference. You can feel the emotional pressure releasing.
The action of repeatedly taking your conscious attention into an obsession may not look to the outside world much like action but it will certainly feel like action to you. It is this ‘drilling down’, repeated daily, that brings results.
Like most other areas of life that first journey into the unknown is often the most painful, prolonged and sharpest learning curve to be had but without it nothing else can happen.
Regards - Carl
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